Being a mother

I love being a mom. I just do. I have wanted to be a mom since as long as I can remember. We had our first child, Ethan, in 2006. Kinsey came in 2008 and Macie in 2010. They were all born by Csection and all within 3 years. We made the decision while pregnant with Macie- that she would be our last. The decision was mostly financial - since we really want to afford to do fun things with our children. The second reason, was health. Since I had 3 csections and they were taking a little toll on my body! Im sure I probably could have handled another. My mom knows a woman that had 7 csections!! ouch!

With that said, Im a little sad. Now is the time we would be trying for another baby. I don't really have the baby fever crazies like I got with the other 2 though. And I am not completely sure I am 'yearning' for another baby. Im not sure what it is. Maybe just the mourning of my pregnant self.  I think I could have had 5 or 6 kids and I would have been happy :) I keep seeing pregnant women and friends and wishing it was me. But then I think about it, and Im glad it isn't! lol. What a mix of emotions. Its a lot different then when Kinsey was 10 months old and I HAD to have another baby. We weren't actively trying when we got pregnant with her though- not yet. God has his own plan for that. I had surgery and it got my ovulation off a bit- so my planning wasn't on target. oops! And then I found out I was pregnant the same day I found out my grandfather passed away. All in God's Timing. :)

I would love to adopt later and add to our little family- but for now, Im loving and enjoying the 3 children God blessed us with!