High Heeled Country

With Kinsey I had Postpartum Depression. At 6 weeks it was at its worst, and I sought help from my doctor. Fortunately this man knew me and knew that I was not my normal self. I was very fortunate to be in his care. He put me on a low dose of an antidepressant. It took effect immediately and I was feeling normal emotions again. The downfall- I missed 6 weeks of bonding with my precious daughter. That may not seem like much in the grand scheme of things, but it is. Kinsey and I missed out on a very important time in her life. I still have horrible guilt over this. I was sick and couldn't have done anything different from what I did. I was very blessed to have Devan by my side to support me and take care of Kinsey for me. She was on formula since I wasn't up to feeding her. So she and Devan bonded while he fed her and cared for her. She is 20 months now and they are so incredibly bonded. Makes me feel blessed to have a wonderful husband that was able and willing to step up. God is good!

The point of this post is that, I had my 6 week check up on Friday. My doctor asked me how I was feeling with 3 little ones. And I was able to say GREAT! I may not get the sleep I want, I may not get to eat when I'm hungry, and I may have to sit and nurse for hours at a time!! BUT, I am well! Thank you GOD for giving me the gift of motherhood. I may still be sad over my loss of attachment to Kinsey at birth, but I learned such an appreciation for bonding with my children. I make a special effort with each of them now, not taking a moment for granted. I love and adore all 3 of them equally- they are God gifts!