Its been less then a week now, since Macie turned one, but I am still having a hard time. I just cannot shake this feeling of sadness. I know I made the decision all on my own, well with Devan of course, to not have any more children. It wasn't my doctors suggestion, it was my choice. So why am I so upset about it? The day before Macie's birthday- last Friday I cried pretty much all morning. Every little thing that went wrong set me off into another crying episode. It is so hard to explain how I am truly feeling about this.
I am unsure if I am more upset that I cannot have another child, or the fact that my baby turned one and is on her way to being a walking talking child soon. If that makes sense?! I feel this small part of me wanting a baby, and not feeling complete. But then I really get to thinking about it and wonder if its just my sadness over Macie being older. Please continue to pray that I find some peace and completeness in this emotional mess I am in. I do feel so incredibly blessed to have the 3 children we have. And they are so amazing and healthy. I just can't seem to shake this feeling.
Thanks for listening!
Friday, April 29, 2011
Macie turns 1
Well, the big day came and went. Miss Macie Mae is now a big 1 year old! She loved every minute of her party. Especially the cake! That girl could have sat there and ate cake all day.
She is such a joy to be around. She was up most of the day and didn't fuss one time! She is just so easy to please. We are truly blessed with this little girl. We had several family members and a couple friends over for a Easter egg hunt and lunch. And you can't for get the cake!
Macie's Cake
Number 1 cake for everyone- Butter flavored with Chocolate frosting! So yummy!
Isn't she adorable!! she melts my heart!
All the kiddos!
Ladies opening presents. The men were busy outside working on our new riding lawn mower. Much better this way!!!
Happy Birthday sweet girl! You truly are a gift from God!
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