this morning did not start well. things got off on the wrong foot and just kept building from there. but fortunately when you have a love like ours....it comes full circle right back to where it should. happiness. id like to say we learned some things...and maybe we did. i do know for sure though..what doesnt kill us will make us stronger.
i do love my hubby
ps sorry for the grammatical issues my phone isnt shifting hmmm
Saturday, April 9, 2011
Friday, April 1, 2011
Bittersweet
Macie will be 1 in 3 weeks. 22 days. ugh. I love this little girl, she is sooo precious and has an amazing personality. We have been so blessed with her. Her birthday is so very bittersweet to this momma. She is my last and final baby and before long will not be a baby any longer. Oh how I'm already missing it. I just want to hold her and cuddle her forever, just keep her this age for as long as I can.
Today was my yearly exam and I had to go through the 'you got a tubal' stuff again. I really don't want to talk about it. I tried to mention it to a couple people today- but unless you are a young woman in her child bearing years and you just recently had a tubal, you can't possibly understand how I feel right now. You can try, and thank you for doing so, but you just don't know.
I am sad I'm done having kids. And to be honest- if it wasn't for a very few people... I would have had one or two more. But with little support of that, I had the tubal so I would be done. I have regrets. I want more. I made a very permanent decison and now, I am done having kids. I will manage and I will be content. I can blame no one but myself for deciding what I did.
My dr assured me that at the first yearly exam after having a tubal, many women feel the way I do. Which, is comforting. I am hoping as the year goes on and I get past this small bump I will feel better. Pray I can find peace and be satisfied and content with my decision and feel blessed to have the family and life I do.
Philippians 4:6-7
'Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. '
Today was my yearly exam and I had to go through the 'you got a tubal' stuff again. I really don't want to talk about it. I tried to mention it to a couple people today- but unless you are a young woman in her child bearing years and you just recently had a tubal, you can't possibly understand how I feel right now. You can try, and thank you for doing so, but you just don't know.
I am sad I'm done having kids. And to be honest- if it wasn't for a very few people... I would have had one or two more. But with little support of that, I had the tubal so I would be done. I have regrets. I want more. I made a very permanent decison and now, I am done having kids. I will manage and I will be content. I can blame no one but myself for deciding what I did.
My dr assured me that at the first yearly exam after having a tubal, many women feel the way I do. Which, is comforting. I am hoping as the year goes on and I get past this small bump I will feel better. Pray I can find peace and be satisfied and content with my decision and feel blessed to have the family and life I do.
Philippians 4:6-7
'Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus. '
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